The last few months have been a crazy journey in finding myself and finding God while digging deeper into my faith. A lot of tests. A lot of setbacks. A lot of disappointment. A lot of mistakes. A lot of hope. A lot of happiness. A lot of inspiration.
This morning at Elevation uptown, with my dear friends and sisters in Christ, Allison and Karsynn by my side, a breakthrough happened for me.
Growing up in church and living my entire life as a Christian I have always considered myself “saved” but today I realized that you are never truly saved until you fully surrender. For so long I have been playing a tug of war between God and myself with how I’ve wanted my life to be, who I thought I was, who others saw me as. Today I surrendered. I let go of the hurt, let go of the negative things I believed about myself, let go of the past completely. Power is found in what you choose to believe. I had been choosing to believe all of the negative things inside my head about who I am, the things people have said about me, the terrible things I believed about myself that I hadn’t completely let go of. I have had countless setbacks and disappointments in my life that I have allowed to consume my mind, and even sometimes my attitude towards life.
Following the course of the Waymaker series at Elevation I’ve learned so much about myself and am closing the year out with a new identity. I am not defined by my past. I am not defined by the opinions of others. I am defined by who I choose to be and who God created me to be.
I’ve taken on The Word. I have chosen to believe in who God says I am, in who God created and intended for me to be. I choose to believe in the good.
I’ve taken on The Truth. I have vowed to sound more like Christ, and less like the crowd. Encouraging others and their faith in the Lord. Taking a leap of hope and faith in the direction of God and breaking through the crowd to get to Him.
And now, I will take on The Assignment. Going back into the crowd as an example of the impact Christ can have on your life. And helping to guide others towards their new identity in Christ. Being a Waymaker.
“We go to Christ to be healed, Christ comes to you for a new identity.”
Today, December 17, 2017 I have let go, and let God. I have been redeemed. I have been saved. I have found my new identity. And I cannot wait to see how Christ will continue to impact and flourish my life.
“Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come: The old has gone, the new is here!” -2 Corinthians 5:17