I love others, and I love to love others. And I know this is what the Lord governs us to do, to love, and to love like Him, so I am blessed that loving and forgiving others comes so naturally to me. But sometimes this puts me in a really vulnerable position, and in a danger zone to be hurt easily.
I have trouble understanding that not everybody is as compassionate and empathetic as I am. And that’s okay. We are all designed differently. I personally am not someone to shrug others off, especially when I know someone is hurting or has been hurt. I can’t just turn my back on people and pretend as if they never existed. I relate too much to people who have been hurt or are hurting. A lot of times I care about people who have not been very gracious, and hurtful towards me. This is something I wish I could change about myself.
Sometimes I wish I didn’t care at all, life would be a lot easier that way. I wish that I could just turn my cheek to other people and care only about myself. On a usual basis I have a pretty thick skin, it takes a lot to hurt my feelings or make me mad, like, A LOT. I’m just not one to get mad or upset so easily or act impulsively and irrationally. Though I do have a pretty thick skin, my heart is fragile.
We are instructed to forgive people seventy times seven, this is also something that comes effortlessly to me. I wish I wasn’t so forgiving. I wish I didn’t care about people as much as I do. I wish I didn’t love people the way I do. Maybe then the stakes of getting hurt wouldn’t be as high. But I know that God has designed me this way for a specific reason, whatever that reason may be. So I will try to be more confident in this aspect of myself.
I am very much a compassionate, caring person. I care about people, deeply, passionately, and with my whole heart. I still am not sure what my exact “purpose” or “calling” is in life but I’m beginning to think that maybe it is something in the aspect of connecting with and embracing others.
God creates us all uniquely and specifically for the purpose He calls us to fulfill.
Closing out this post with my favorite verse…