“But time makes you bolder, even children get older, and I’m getting older, too…”
I’m writing this at 10:54 on Friday, November 23rd 2018. One hour and six minutes before my birthday. But I probably won’t post this until tomorrow, or maybe even the day after. So by the time all of you read this I won’t be 23 anymore…
I think about all of the things 23 taught me. All of the experiences 23 had in store. All of the opportunities (and even missed opportunities) 23 gave me.
Overall I have to say 23 was a pretty good year. It was definitely a year of becoming my best self. My completely authentic self.
I dedicated my life to the Lord at 23. I was baptized at 23. I’ve been the happiest I think I’ve ever been at 23.
I faced some challenges, had a few failures, and had many successes in my 23rd year. I feel like I really became a “big girl” aka a real life adult. I started a career. I bought a car that is completely my own (aka dad’s name isn’t on the title). Started paying off my student loans…. this one is actually not as depressing as it sounds, while I could complain about it, I’m blessed to be at a place in life where I can do this, some people struggle to scrape up enough to have food each month.
I couldn’t begin to count all the lessons 23 taught me, but the greatest lesson has definitely been trust. Trust less in other people, more in myself, and fully in God.
I’ve been privileged enough to cross paths with some pretty amazing people who have become trustworthy, solid friends… not just “friends” but family really. I say this because I know these people are part of the roots in my tree of life. The ones who have stood by me no matter what weather or season I experienced… And I definitely think I’ve been through SEVERAL seasons over the course of this year, it’s been pretty wild. But so are they. And I love them. So much.
I started my first blog, realized I was actually on to something, and created a new platform for myself. I’ve received so much love and support and seriously can’t thank y’all enough for it. Thank you for the countless messages, for the words of encouragement and most important to me, sharing your experiences. That’s really why I did this, to connect with you, and to be a source of encouragement for one another. If you ever need one, you’ll always have a friend in me.
I said last year on my birthday that 23 was going to be the year of Maddie, and I definitely think that it has been.
So, therefore I declare TWENTY FOUR to be my golden year… Mainly because I’ve had a lot of people tell me “oh it’s your golden year, you’ll be 24 on the 24th!” I don’t really know what that means but it sounds exciting because anything “golden” is usually pretty glamorous and significant, so I’ll take it.
Twenty three, you have been so good to me, and I will remember you forever…
With all of my heart and soul,