I found myself in Matthew 5 during my nightly reading, and prayer time. Nothing specific really brought me to that passage. To be completely transparent I thought the way my bible and journal was laid out on my bed looked super aesthetic & wanted to take a pic, and flipped to a page in my bible where I had jotted down several notes (ya know, so people would think I’m a steadfast follower, and actually use this thing… how superficial, right?)
So I snapped my pic, and then I began reading what was right in front of me.
The sermon on the mount.
“Blessed are the poor in spirit,
for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
4 Blessed are those who mourn,
for they will be comforted.
5 Blessed are the meek,
for they will inherit the earth.
6 Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness,
for they will be filled.
7 Blessed are the merciful,
for they will be shown mercy.
8 Blessed are the pure in heart,
for they will see God.
9 Blessed are the peacemakers,
for they will be called children of God.
10 Blessed are those who are persecuted because of righteousness,
for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
11 “Blessed are you when people insult you, persecute you and falsely say all kinds of evil against you because of me. 12 Rejoice and be glad, because great is your reward in heaven, for in the same way they persecuted the prophets who were before you.”
Isn’t it incredible how the Lord stops us right in our tracks and redirects our focus to the exact thing we need to be reminded of, and possibly learn something new?
I had to have a “come to Jesus” moment with myself after reading that because my life has been all sorts of messed up lately. BUT I feel like things are starting to settle. I’m starting to put things back together, and most importantly, turn my focus back on Jesus, which is something I haven’t been prioritizing as much as I should. (I’ve written a blog about my struggle that I haven’t posted yet… it’s coming. It was just a really tough one to write)
Anyways, reading the first part of this sermon hit home for me for multiple reasons. I realized that I hadn’t been the most committed to any of it. To be honest, I’ve kind of been feeling like an underdog lately with how life has been going. This passage also reminded me that Jesus is totally FOR the underdogs. He takes the underdogs and the unqualified’s and uses them in MIGHTY BIG ways. I just need to get out of the underdog mindset and live with the truth that I am capable of all things when the Lord is directing my steps…. I’ve been directing my own steps, and have ran myself straight into a big dark hole it feels like.
And that’s a good segway for the second part of this sermon. Because life has seemed like a big dark hole…
13 “You are the salt of the earth. But if the salt loses its saltiness, how can it be made salty again? It is no longer good for anything, except to be thrown out and trampled underfoot.
14 “You are the light of the world. A town built on a hill cannot be hidden. 15 Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house. 16 In the same way, let your light shine before others, that they may see your good deeds and glorify your Father in heaven.
I’ve kind of let my light dim for a while. It’s been pretty dull honestly. Other people have even commented on it. That I haven’t seemed as “bright” as I usually do.
I’ve been discouraged about a lot of aspects of my life, my past mistakes and demons being one of the bigger ones.
Yet, even though I have felt discouraged in my own life, I find myself giving so much of my encouragement to others, without giving any to myself. I haven’t given myself a fair shot. And a lot of this will make more sense once I post my other blog.
I’ve realized that if I neglect myself the chance to be on the receiving end of the light that is inside of me, it won’t shine as bright for others, either. I love to love on people. I don’t really know why. Maybe it’s to make up for the fact that I’ve been a pretty hurt person for the greater part of my adult life so far, and I don’t want anyone else to hurt, so I do as much as I can to love others.
With that being said, one thing I’m working on now is giving myself some of the same light I try to give out to other people.
I think the main takeaway of Matthew 5 for me tonight is that this little light of mine, isn’t very little at all. God gave each of us a very bright, and very powerful light to shine upon the earth. That’s what we’re here to do. And I’m gonna let my light shine.
I’m really good with words (well, I’m good at writing them at least). So I know that’s one way to let my light shine. But I need to do more, so I’m gonna challenge myself to do more with this light, and put it on display for all to see.
So this light of mine, I’m gonna let it shine.
Let it shine, let it shine, let it shine.